Rick your post really said it…
Kent told me his story about guilt and how it made him feel, and it’s Fucking Tragic. What if I don’t want to wear a white shirt on Sunday, What if I want to smoke a cigar and have a vodka stinger with a whiskey back, look at some strippers, get horny and have train wreck, crazy sex with my beautiful wife. The Organization would say “Uh ohh… Brother Sannes you are on the path to ruin and devastation, you are bringing everyone you know or have ever known on that dark little trip too. Well if that’s the case then buckle up fucknuts ‘cause we’re goin’ for a ride.
I am making the best attempt I know how, to not let guilt poison me. The Organization runs on guilt. I don’t think that’s how it was meant to be. I think, idealistically, it should be a place where everyone is welcome from the prophet down to the hung over guy who is wearing flip-flops and shorts and can’t wait to get outside to have a smoke. When was the last time you saw someone like that welcomed in?
Oh and sex… There’s a real problem. How many people can say they feel completely comfortable with their sex lives. Not many… Lots of people doing lots of stuff to compensate (Porn, Jerkin’ off, and on and on) and what is everyone feeling like… guilty, guilty, guilty. How many people were told all their lives “sex is bad, sex is evil, don’t have sex,” then got married and had sex, felt guilty, never really felt comfy with it. If I had a quarter for every guy in the church who jerks off to porn and feels shitty… then feels shittier because their wife won’t give it up or really participate that much I’d be rich.
Since I have decided to “do what I want” I am waaayyy happier. I have lots of fun, I have unbelievable sex, I have more friends that I have a lot more in common with. I have more time for my kids, and more time for my wife. I love my job, and I am better at it.
I’m not saying this path is for everyone. I am saying that before you run off and give the stock answers and condemnations, take a minute or 6000 and think about it.
Rick this Blog is the best idea, I’d love to hear from anyone, anytime.
Dave
no spoon.