I have seen you at your worst, and i can live with it, although obviously not very easily. Cold, hard, bitter, toxic. Sort of like plutonium. Seeing you in this state, i have a sense of what Osho means by insanity: being totally, if temporarily, locked in the mind. You are convinced you know what's going on, because you are drawing from your experience, and nobody can invalidate your perceptions.

One thing: when you are drawing from your experience, you are choosing. You have many experiences to choose from, and you are choosing those that fit a certain pattern. You could choose a different pattern, also drawn from your own experience. In fact, you could draw from your experience of me rather than of others. Just a thought.