Behind my Secrets is my Energy
excerpts from an interview with Ma Ramakanta
nergy for me is really just being in your truth. I call the work that I do Osho Energy because thats what it gives me, thats what comes. Thats what it is. Im not going to teach you anything, but you can experience Osho in it and thats all I care about. I dont care if you learn anything; theres nothing to learn. If what you get out of it is an experience of Osho hey, Im happy. Theres really nothing else.
No matter what happens, when youre in energy nobody can take truth away from you: truth about yourself, which to me translates as Osho. Thats what I call Osho energy. Being in your truth is to be Osho, is to live Osho, is to feel Osho.
When people come to me who have never done a group before, who have never even heard of Osho, I tell them that Im going to call this energy that were working with Osho energy. I show them Oshos picture and I give them a very brief history of his life as a spiritual master and I say: some people may call it God or Goddess or anything they want whatever. For me its very important to acknowledge the source of my information and inspiration. This is Osho energy: to be in your truth.
Im going to use whatever I can to take you away from the mind so you can move into energy. Theres always a choice; you can go with either mind or energy. Im not interested at all in the mind; I have no space for it. I just go for the energy, and nothing gets in my way when Im working. I often hear the question: whats she doing now? The things that come out of my mouth sometimes blow me away.
In my work I never become concerned. Anything can happen and anything can be worked out in the context of energy. Its not a problem. Ill give space to anything. Your body needs to go through it. If you dont go through it, you cant complete it. Theres no other way.
The work that I do is often on the edge, because it is often confrontational, even encounter work, if thats what comes up. And in a month-long energy school how can it not come up? I do the best that I can to keep it clean, to keep it straight, to keep it simple. But I mean, we go for it: it happens. Its got to happen if youre going to wake up and were talking about waking up. Were talking about really, really dropping the past and waking up.
Its not about therapy. Therapy to me is basically trying to figure out what is wrong with you. That makes it a mind trip. And everything that the mind thinks, creates a problem.
Energy is about being in your truth without any problem. Its not bad; its not good; its not right; its not wrong; no need to judge it. When Im in my energy I may not know what it is, but somethings flowing, somethings moving, somethings alive in my body and Im trusting what I feel. But how do you talk about energy? Experience it. Its about experience experiencing as op-posed to thinking.
I work with people to go into their fear. Thats the starting place with my work. Dont run away from it; dont avoid it in any way, shape or form. If youre feeling fear, great this is the place to come and do this work. I learned from my own experience that my fear was my jumping place. It was the door to my energy.
The summer after Osho left his body I opened the Osho Times one day in Pune and saw the Tantra Training advertised there. The whole idea made me shake I was terrified. And then I remembered what I was teaching other people: if theres fear, jump!
It was heavy. It was great. It was the greatest thing I ever did but the worst thing also. It was very difficult an amazing experience.
To me, sex is a choice. Because Im working consciously with it, its a choice not an unconscious attraction. But its a big issue for me and I often feel Im a target because Im with women. Ive always been open about it and the Tantra Training was no different. Behind all my secrets is my energy and I want my energy! I dont care what it takes; Im going for that because its true. And if youre afraid to say it, so be it. Be afraid to say it and be the loser.
So in my work I say that there are no secrets. Underneath the secrets is the energy. So forget secrets. If you want to come here, if you want to be here, you have to want to expose yourself as much as you can. The more you expose, the more youll find yourself. Once people understand that, they really start to go for it.
In my energy work everyone is there to work on their own personal story. I have my own story, of course, and you have your own story. And to me my story is the most important thing to get clear about. To you, even though were in the same workshop, your story is the most important thing. And sometimes you will tell your story and go into it and it will trigger my story. And Ill cry with you because it touches my story. Thats where the energy happens between us. And in the work I do when everybodys story touches everybodys story, we become one. And then were in energy and its so beautiful, it is Osho.
Its really blossoming now. And it hurts when people say negative things about me, but I have to be myself. I trust that I really do not abuse others with my power. Because my heart is open when Im working, totally. I trust what I feel. Im not right or wrong because in this energy work there is no right or wrong. But Im not interested in having power over anybody. I want all of us to be able to stand in our own power. Some people might want to give power to me but thats their trip to turn around and look at. And Im learning so much about the whole issue. Im not afraid to stand in my own power.
All my life Id been playing meek and mild. But I was one tough cookie, and I was powerful but in a very manipulative way, in a very controlling way. And when I started to take my power something in me began to relax. Before that I was judging everybody; I was controlling everything. But the more I took my power in my work, the more relaxed my whole being was.
I just finished doing the Anti-Fischer-Hoffman process this year in Pune and I discovered things about myself that Ive been talking about for a long time but could never let myself experience so deeply. Now that Ive seen what happened to me hey, Im going to give myself all the space in the world I need for whatever it takes to heal completely. And I dont care what anybody thinks about me.
I dont know what Im doing who knows what theyre doing with Osho? But its fun, its alive, its energetic and its playful and Im enjoying myself immensely.
When I came out of AFH one of the assistants said to me: Ramakanta, follow the wow. And thats really what Im doing right now following the wow.
[ More information on Ramakanta's activities can be found on her new website at http://www.saltspring.com/ramakanta/ ]