Going Into Aloneness

accepting the absence of the master's body

The following letters shed light on the search after the master has left the body, and the question of keeping Osho 24-karat gold. In August 1998 the Inner Circle sent to all Osho Meditation Centres a copy of a letter written to Ma Prem Turiya by Swami Anand Jayesh. In this letter Jayesh asked Turiya not to offer her work in Osho Centres as an Osho therapist, because of concern that her practice of sitting with other masters might confuse new people coming to Osho and prevent them from finding Him “with all 24 karats.”

This letter created enormous controversy in Osho centres and communities around the world.

In January 1999 Turiya answered the Inner Circle, acknowledging that for her, going to sit with others had been a way to avoid facing her aloneness.

We feel that Turiya’s insight into her process is a very significant one and appreciate her honesty; we reprint here both the letter to her from Jayesh and her reply.

eloved Turiya,

This is to crystallize the essence of Anando’s conversations with you and the effort made at a shared understanding of Osho’s guidance and insights for His work.

This process, like others, is a reminder to the Inner Circle of a shared insight from Osho: to help us all in understanding ourselves and in understanding His work.

He shares that many of His people who were with Him in the body would not make the jump from the presence of the master in the body to the absence of the master in the body. That for the mind of many, the gap created would be too deep and too wide. That in the mystery of existence, they would not understand that they had received from existence exactly what was required of the Master’s bodily presence. And that in this pain of the mind they would travel the world sitting at the feet of every idiot – Osho’s words. Clear, accepting and compassionate.

He also says that His new people, who would be coming after He left the body, would not have the need of His physical presence – again in the mystery of existence, if they had that need they would have come earlier. He says existence calls people to the work of an enlightened One at exactly the right moment. That because of countless generations of religions and priests, we are conditioned that we need the other and as a result we give the other our responsibility. That his new people coming would be very fragile in their potential to be totally responsible and be courageous enough to walk alone, feeling the presence of the Master without the need of His body.

He asks in this understanding that where Osho is used – be it in the name of a meditation center, a publication, a therapist’s title, or in any other context –
that people coming find Him, His understanding, His proposal with all 24 karats. That nothing associated with Osho cause confusion to others coming about the essential direction of their path – particularly to His new people.

Osho always respects the responsibility and freedom of the individual – perhaps above all else. With His shared insight, your process, your life, is not judged, and is accepted. Your view that you need to sit with others, as you have shared, and that if Osho were in the body you wouldn’t have this need, is your choice for your life, now.

We do not question your sincerity as a seeker nor your love and connection with Osho – and perhaps you are not available now to His message to us all – present and future – that without the burden of His tortured body His presence will be more available to His people.

Our concern is that your process causes confusion for others – more so because you work as an Osho therapist, primarily in Osho centers. In that function you take on an additional responsibility. This is not against the study of techniques that may enhance your skills as a therapist. He says that what is offered in therapy is in part a cleansing of the old and with the new people coming not much is needed. More importantly, the offering is a bridge from the mind and pain to meditation and no mind. That whatever bridge is useful is fine and not of much importance – understanding its real purpose is important. That in His meditation centers and in Osho therapy the vital ingredients are His Dynamic and Kundalini meditations and the evening satsang with the Master, including His discourses.

The doors of Osho’s proposal – His work – are open doors and a reflection perhaps of pure trusting. Our trusting is in your integrity as a lover of Osho, who, in not understanding His insight and guidance for His work, is causing confusion, without intent or malice.

It is clear to us that it is best for Osho’s work that you not offer your work in Osho Centers, nor as an Osho therapist at this time. The doors of course are always open to you as a meditator .

With love to you,
Swami Anand Jayesh,
On behalf of the Inner Circle.

eloved friends in the Inner Circle,

First of all I would like to clearly recognize your responsibility and authority in upholding Osho’s work and vision for both old and new people coming to Osho. I am with Osho and I don’t want to harm Osho’s work in any way. So since receiving your letter last August I have taken a lot of time to really look honestly what I could learn from it. I certainly have learned (and still do) a lot from the letter, and the issues it has raised. I appreciate your taking a stand.

What really touches me is the place that you shone light on, about facing aloneness. Aloneness is a place that in the past has held a lot of anxiety and fear for me, and I can see that my going to sit with others was a way of avoiding to face that. I was not trusting that Osho has left us with all the tools we need, not trusting that I have it all in myself – that the only place where I can find is within myself by going in, not out. I recognize that this going into aloneness is one of the most essential points that Osho shares with us about the inner journey. For me to move into that aloneness has been really scary, but it is a point that I also welcome, am exploring and will continue to explore deeply. I can understand it now and want to really move into that space that Osho has given to all of us.

I did not realize, and understand now, that when an Osho therapist seeks spiritual guidance from others, this gives a contradictory message to people and is therefore incompatible with this function. Seeing this, I choose to be an Osho therapist. Through this whole confrontation I can also see clearly now how much responsibility I have, not only to new people, but also to old sannyasins. I really wasn’t aware of that! I can see where my responsibility is.

I found the issues that the letter raised a great help to crystallize all these points. Even though I have felt hurt, I could also welcome it, and what I am learning from it, as a gift. I have appreciated the many dialogues about all this since your original letter and I thank you.

Lots of love,
Ma Prem Turiya

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