keeping Osho 24-karat gold
by Sw Dhyan Vishram
omething is stirring under the surface of the sannyas communities. The sannyas world is abuzz with rumours. The Inner Circle seems to be in the hot seat. Here in Osho Pulse the question surfaces as Keeping Osho 24-karat gold.
Something is amiss. But what is it?
We hardly talk about it. It is more convenient to pretend that everything is just fine, that we are all on the fast track to enlightenment. But there is a certain undercurrent of dissatisfaction. Something is not quite right, but we cant think what it is exactly. Out of this uneasiness some drift away, some search for other masters. What does sannyas mean now that Osho has been out of the body for almost a decade?
Do we have to change His guidance? Or should we not change anything?
Should we convene a sannyas summit, a Council of all lovers of Osho to clear the issue? But the outcome of a convention would have to be either rules and regulations or dissension. Neither is very helpful. Rules and regulations, or a Body of His Guidance are just the opposite of what Osho is to me. Remember when He burned the Book of Rajneeshism on the Ranch? If I recall correctly His point was not only that Sheela faked a few things but also that she did a codification at all of words He did say. My understanding is that Osho has given us everything He wanted to say in His discourses. No other compilations of His words are necessary or helpful.
So what should we do? Where do we go from here? Or is the time for sannyas communities and communes over and we have to face and acknowledge our aloneness? Every sannyasin alone inside himself/herself?
But being inside is not possible without Osho. At least for me it isnt. And so the question stands before me once again: what does it mean to keep Osho 24-karat gold?
I heard Osho say to use our own intelligence and to respond to the situation. I remember Him saying we shouldnt be followers.
As a follower I say, Well, Osho said this and that. Thats how we should think and act, or, even worse, Well, thats how its done in Poona! Then nobody can blame me. Im not sticking my head up. If I dont want to be a follower my mind jumps to the opposite: Well, times have changed. Osho couldnt foresee everything. We should adjust things a bit. But I mistrust my mind. Often what seemed such a good idea at first, an idea born out of the best intentions, turns out to be a foolish thing later on. And only after the damage is done I realize that I was fooled by my mind again.
So there seems to be a dilemma: To follow Oshos guidance in all ways seems to be just as wrong as changing it. This is a koan. A koan is a question, a situation, that cannot be solved by the mind. Every answer the mind can conceive of is wrong. A koan can be solved only by jumping out of the mind, by leaving the mind behind. It seems this is one more of the very masterful devices that Osho has designed. He still compels me either to leave my mind behind and be with Him or to leave Him. How wonderful!
I feel in tune with Osho when I look inside, when I go inside, when I dont try to manage things on the outside alone. As far as I can see Osho is not concerned with managing things, not concerned with the outside He is concerned with my inside. He is concerned that I find my own truth within myself. Thats what I remember Him repeating; thats how I read Him in His books.
Keeping Osho 24-karat gold has to do with going inside. The question has to be answered from inside, not from the outside, not from the point of what is useful, sannyasly correct or what is attractive to potential lovers of Osho.
I also remember hearing Osho say that we have to be courageous to look for and stand for our own truth, that it cannot be given to us, that we have to find it ourselves. Again, I have to go inside as this is the only place where truth can be found. But what I find there is truth only when it passes the examination of Is this my truth, or is it a concept that I have found somewhere else? Am I imitating? And furthermore I have to ask, Is this my truth or is my mind fooling me again? Am I reacting out of my ego
because it feels hurt or out of self-aggrandizement?
To just believe that He has given us the truth and we shouldnt look further, means that I refrain from digging deeper into myself, that I content myself with given answers. Thats not how I understand Oshos message. I have to go beyond believing, I have to penetrate inside and find my truth.
The point here is not that my truth would be different from what Osho says. The point is that I have to find it myself. I know that my truth is the same as Oshos but still I have to find it myself, to see it myself, to verify it myself. If I gave up this search I would be a believer, I would be comfortable but still a captive of my mind since believing together with its opposite, doubt are tools of the mind. So I have to go beyond believing. I have to set out no, set inside and find it myself.
Yet, I never can be sure. I suspect that, unenlightened as I am, there is always the possibility that I am misled by my mind, my emotions, my ego. But I still have to try. Finding my truth is an ongoing process of gaining understanding interspersed with mistakes, errors and half-truths. Yet this process is necessary. Mistakes might be the price for enlightenment.
Whatever I find in this process is only provisional, it is not an eternal truth. It is true for and in that moment. My truth changes. My truth is true only if it is alive, or else it would be just a philosophical idea, a dead concept. In order to be alive it has to be open to change. Thus my truth is not something eternally written in stone. It is not a thing. It is my being alive and responding to the ever-changing world around me. Out of this ever-changing truth I cant make rules for keeping Osho 24-karat gold. The response of today is different from yesterdays and different again from tomorrows. The rule of yesterday contradicts the truth of now.
The question of what we should do to keep Osho 24-karat gold can never be answered finally. I can only live it as an ever-ongoing responding. I have to face this question and respond on and on and on ...
Remember that you are a buddha sammasati.*
These are Oshos last words spoken in public. This is His final message, His guidance in a nutshell:
We are buddhas remember! This is the meaning of sammasati.
And to find our buddhahood we dont have to follow anybody, you dont have to recite any sutra. You don't have to remember anything outside you. Just be a pillar of remembrance: sammasati.*
How simple, how elegant!
And since we are buddhas we are in our innermost core, where the Buddha resides of the same essence as Osho.
So keeping Osho 24-karat gold comes down to keeping my own buddhahood 24-karat gold, or better since my buddhahood is never tarnished it means keeping my sammasati, my awareness, 24-karat gold. In awareness, in remembering who I am, in sammasati, I am true to myself I am true to Osho.
One day, Tanka said to the monks who were with him, You should all protect your essential thing, which is not made or formed by you.
So how can I teach you to do this or not to do this? *
Only remember one thing: the essential being is not manufactured by anyone. And if you can remember it, and you can live in the light of it, then whatever you do is right. There is no need to decide what is right and what is wrong. No morality is needed at all.*
These words sum it up. That's what it means to me to keep Osho 24-karat gold. Nothing else is needed.
Only this: sammasati.
* Osho, from The Zen Manifesto