Amrito's Address Jan
20, 1990 in Buddha Hall
page is part
of the historical background relating to "What Is an
Osho?", a slick, sannyas-paradigm-shifting policy paper written by the same
and circulated in 1998. A deconstruction of that paper is presented
on this site, introduced here.
Source for the below is a printout of his address given to people arriving from around the world shortly
afterwards who had missed it. No electronic text version of the
complete text was found on the net as of Aug 2015 but three separate
fragments were found, reflecting the interests of those who uploaded
them. These fragments have together more or less replicated the
material below, save a few typos here and there. Words in italics are
as in the printout.
As you know, over these last few
days Osho's body has been becoming
noticeably weaker. What you may not know is that He has also been in
considerable pain. By the night of the 18th, the pain in His legs was
so severe that He was not able even to come stand on the podium and be
This first part above is also reproduced in Shunyo's
Days with Osho. The printout continues:
Over that night He became weaker
weaker. Every movement of the
was obviously agonizing. Yesterday morning I noticed that His pulse was
also weak and slightly irregular. I
said I thought He was dying. He nodded.
I asked Him if we could call
in the cardiologists and prepare for cardiac resuscitation. He said,
"No, just let me go. Existence decides its timing."
I was helping him to the bathroom
said, "And you put
wall-to-wall carpet in here, just like this bath mat." Then He
insisted on walking over to His chair. He sat down and made
arrangements for the few items that He has in His room. "Who should this go to?" He said, pointing
to His small stereo. "It is
audio? Nirupa would like it?" He asked. Nirupa has cleaned His room for
so many years.
And then He went carefully around
and left instructions for
every item. "Those you take out," He said, pointing to the
dehumidifiers which he had found too noisy recently. And always make
sure one air conditioner is on," He continued.
It was incredible. Very simply,
in a very
matter-of-fact and precise
way, He looked at everything. He was so relaxed, as if He were going
for the weekend.
He sat on the bed and I asked what we should do for
His Samadhi. "You
just put my ashes in Chuang Tzu, under the bed. And then people can
come in and meditate there," He said.
"And what about this room?" I
"This would be good for the
"No," I said, "Chuang Tzu will be
I said we would like to keep His
bedroom as it is. "So you
it nice," He said. And then He said He would like it marbled.
"And what about the celebration?"
"Just take me to Buddha Hall for
minutes," He said, "and then take
me to the burning ghats - and put my hat and socks on me before you
I asked Him what I should say to
He said to tell you that
since His days in the marshal's cell in Charlotte, North Carolina, in
America, His body has been deteriorating. He said that in the Oklahoma
jail they poisoned Him with thallium and exposed Him to radiation,
which we only came to know when the medical experts were consulted. He said they had poisoned Him in such a
way that would leave no proof
"My crippled body is the work of the Christian fundamentalists in the
United States government," He said. He said that He had kept His pain
Himself, but "living in this body has become a hell."
He lay down and rested again. I
told Jayesh what was
and that Osho was obviously leaving His body. When Osho called again, I told Him Jayesh
was here and He said for
Jayesh to come in. We sat on the bed and Osho gave us His final words.
"Never speak of me in the past
said. "My presence here will
be many times greater without the burden of my tortured body. Remind my
people that they will feel much more, they will know immediately."
At one point I was holding His
hand and I
started to cry. He looked at
me, almost sternly, "No, no," He said, "that is not the way." I
immediately stopped and He just smiled beautifully.
Osho then spoke to Jayesh and
how He wanted the expansion
of the work to continue. He said that now that He was leaving His body,
many more people would come; many more people's interest would show,
and His Work would expand incredibly beyond our ideas.
Then He said, "I leave you my
Then He whispered so quietly that
had to put his ear very close
to Him, and Osho said, "And remember, Anando is my messenger." Then He
paused, and said, "No, Anando will be my medium."
At that point Jayesh moved to one
and Osho said to me, "'Medium'
will be the right word?"
I hadn't heard what had preceded
it so I
"Meeting?" I said.
"No," He replied, "for Anando,
she will be my medium."
He lay back quietly and we sat
while I held His pulse. Slowly
it faded. When I could hardly feel it, I said, "Osho, I think this is
He just nodded gently, and closed
for the last time.
Osho has given some very
specific guidance for His work.
About nine months ago, Osho formed "The Inner Circle", a group of
sannyasins now numbering twenty. Osho said He would have no successor,
the Inner Circle would be His
successor. The function of the Inner Circle is -- in Osho's words
-- "to reach unanimous decisions about the continued functioning and
expansion of the commune and Osho's work". Anando is preparing a full
account of Osho's guidance on the workings of this group and who is in
it. It will be available for you all to read tomorrow.
We are preparing in the next Osho Times all that Osho has said
about what will happen when He leaves His body. I have two of these
beautiful pieces for you.
Ten years ago, in answer to the question: "What happens when you
leave your body?" He replied: "I
will be dissolved in my people. Just as you can taste the sea from any
place and it is salty, you will be able to taste any of my sannyasins
and you will find the same taste: the taste of the Blessed One.
I am preparing my people to live joyously, ecstatically. So when I am
not in my body, it won't make any difference to them. They will still
live the same way -- and maybe my death will bring them more intensity.
About six months ago, He responded to a question from Italian TV
about what would happen after His death, by saying,
"I believe and trust absolutely in existence. If there is any
truth in what I am saying, it will survive. The people who remain
interested in my work will be simply
carrying the torch, but not imposing anything on anyone, either by
sword or bread. I will remain a source of inspiration to my people, and
that is what most sannyasins will feel. I want them to grow on their
own. Qualities like love, around which no church can be created, like
awareness, qualities which are nobody's monopoly, like celebration,
rejoicing and maintaining childlike, fresh eyes. I want people to know
themselves, not be according to someone else, and the way is in".
I hope I have conveyed to you what, throughout all these months of ill
health and impending death, has been most striking about what Osho has
been saying. And that is when His work continues without His having to
be in the body, then this is the flowering of His dream. Let me repeat
His exact words in reference to His leaving the body: "My presence here
will be many times greater ... Remind my people that they will feel
much more, they will know immediately".
He said, "My work is going really well, the commune is running
beautifully, and after my death, many more people will be coming here".
One of the things Osho always said is: "Always make room for my
sannyasins to contribute to my work".
I think you can take it that there is going to be a lot for us all to
In some inexplicable way it feels, not that His work is over, but that
it has just begun.
It feels that His whole life has been a preparation for the moment when
His people can sit in silence and feel His presence without His having
to do the work of carrying His body. He always says He is a lazy man.
Two nights ago, for the very first time, that happened. For the first
time, we ALL sat together in silent communion without His physical
It's already gone 7 o'clock. He will be waiting for us now, for that to